Suicide Note from Charles Carl Roberts IV’s, A truly disturbed & Sick Man


Suicide Note to wife


“I guess sick and evil, those are two good words, but it’s something I guess that was festering inside of him and it was fear of repeating it,” said Cipos.

Roberts wife, Marie, painted a loving picture of her husband who she said in a statement was a, “kind and loving man.”

Marie’s words are a stark contrast to her husband’s last words, written in a suicide note:

“I don’t know how you put up with me all those years. I am not worthy of you, you are the perfect wife you deserve so much better. We had so many good memories together as well as the tragedy with Elise. It changed my life forever I haven’t been the same since it affected me in a way I never felt possible. I am filled with so much hate, hate toward myself hate towards God and unimaginable emptiness it seems like everytime we do something fun I think about how Elise wasn’t here to share it with us and I go right back to anger.” (CBS3)

Shooting timeline

Police: School killer told wife he molested family members


Police Tuesday display gunman’s checklist including eyebolts, a hose, bullets, guns and earplugs.

Story Highlights

• School gunman’s suicide note says he was dreaming of molesting children again
KY Jelly found in classroom where he shot girls, five fatally, on Monday
• Gunman said he molested relatives 20 years ago, but family said it knew nothing
• Pennsylvania police investigating motive for Amish school rampage (CNN)

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  • Comments

    23 Responses to “Suicide Note from Charles Carl Roberts IV’s, A truly disturbed & Sick Man”

    1. Rosalee on October 3rd, 2006 6:09 pm

      How truly sad!! He needed God in the very worst way! My thoughts & prayers are with the Amish Families & also with the Roberts’ Family as well, for they are victims too!I pray that God will give each of them His Love,strength & courage to get through these rough days ahead.

    2. GRETAMAL on October 3rd, 2006 6:12 pm

      God Bless the families. I’m just happy I still don’t have kids that go to school. It is too dangerous to send them there.

    3. GRETAMAL on October 3rd, 2006 7:55 pm

      I just saw where they found KY jelly in the classroom. What a sick-o !!!!!!

    4. GRETAMAL on October 3rd, 2006 7:59 pm

      Got to go. I’m going to watch the Tiger, Yankee game. Everyone have a Great night and see you in the morning.
      -R4N- That was for you nychic!! Good night buddy !!

    5. glad2bAmerican on October 3rd, 2006 9:11 pm

      He could have killed himself and spared the children
      if he was in such distress. They are so innocent of his
      evil mind.

    6. Mortella on October 4th, 2006 12:16 am

      #5 Exactly. It should not have been these little girls with whom he was so angry. If he had to kill someone and was going to take his own life anyway, why not spare them?

      None of this makes sense. I believe he may have been suffering from some disease or imbalance and was delusional. Maybe the autopsy will shed some light on this.

      May the families all find some measure of comfort in their strong faith. I am so sorry this happened to them all. Such little girls, there may yet be more who do not make it. My prayers are with them and for the repose of the souls of those already dead.

    7. boywonder on October 4th, 2006 8:19 am

      I really doubt all this bs about molesting children…I think he was nothing more than a copy cat killer. Would like to know if his autopsy revealed any drug use??

    8. kay zee ess on October 4th, 2006 8:23 am

      Kinda odd how he said he just LOVES his wife and children, yet he perpetrates an action so evil and vile that, although unfair,the ones that he “loves” the most are going to have to bear that cross the rest of their lives.

      Way to go, sick-o! Not only does he murder the innocent children, but he makes sure that HIS children will remember him in this light: a “loving” father who cared more for his pedophilic and child-murdering urges than for his own family, wife and children. Oh yeah, let us not forget he left “notes”. His children really have something great to remember him by, alright.

      Yes, my thoughts and prayers to the innocents that died and his family, who may feel really drained by now.

      My respect to the Amish, who follow in their own way the concept of Christ and emphasized forgiveness. Were I so forgiving of such a cruel and evil cretin. This was truly a test for the Amish people.

    9. para2legal on October 4th, 2006 9:11 am

      An “imbalance” is not an excuse. None of us are perfectly balanced. Roberts heartless acts have changed the lives of many people.
      He was crazy like a fox. Knew exactly what he was going to do and how he was going to do it. Friggin’ coward and bully is what he was. Had a sex lubricant with him. If the police hadn’t arrived when they did there’s no telling what else he would have done to those innocent children.
      Selfish Ba$$$a$d too – what a legacy to leave to your children. Think they’re going to be messed up for the rest of their lives? YES. Dumped all this stuff on his “beloved” wife “who he didn’t deserve”. Well, he got that part right. I hope she changes her name, takes the children moves to another state and starts over.
      My prayers and sympathy to the victims families. This was a senseless, horrific slaughter of innocents by an evil person.

    10. Sharon Chicago on October 4th, 2006 11:34 am

      HE WAS TOTALLY DEMON POSSESSED… Too bad the family could not have had an intervention with him. He must have shown some type of strange behavior in the course of his lifetime? I think sometimes families just turn a blind eye to others and accept their quirky behavior. This one turned out to be from the pit of hell!! I am only glad he cannot hurt anyone else at this point… God bless the families that are broken hearted right now…

    11. Miss-Underestimated on October 4th, 2006 2:03 pm
    12. Amsterdamned on October 4th, 2006 3:21 pm

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    13. micah on October 4th, 2006 4:34 pm

      “Westboro Baptist Church” is a LEFT WING organization POSING as a “baptist church” to caricature their perceptions of “Christians” and “right wing fundamentalists”. They want everyone to hate Christianity as much as they do…

      By the way – is the ACLU protecting the Amish in this situation?

    14. Molly on October 4th, 2006 6:58 pm

      It is good that he applied justice to himself.
      With the liberal pedophile-killer loving Judges,
      he would have probably gotten a temporary insanity
      conviction of 2-5 years. After 1 year or so he would
      be released.

    15. Watcher1 on October 5th, 2006 6:55 pm

      Lots of bad things have been happening lately to people who are the least deserving of having bad things happen to them.

      I have no explanations for why some people do the evil deeds that they do. Tragedy gets a lot of media press because the media is all about getting peoples’ attention in the most direct, non-thinking way possible. Good deeds rarely make the evening news and the papers because a good deed most of the times isn’t sexy enough for those who control the front pages and the television stations. Everything is all about how many people are watching, no matter what form it may take. Here is what I think about it if you have a minute.

      When people look into the mirror and see the devil, the reactions vary:

      Some are fearful of what they see and try to do something so that the next time they look in the mirror, they won’t see the devil.
      Some ignore what they see and hope the next time they look in the mirror, it won’t be the devil.
      Some don’t know that it is the devil that they see and do nothing because they don’t think anything is wrong.
      Finally, there are some that see the devil and give in to what they see.

      The nature of evil, just like the nature of good, most of the time lies in the heart and character of the individual. If you believe in the power of choice that was afforded to us when we were created, then you have to believe that we all have decisions to make when it comes to what path we walk down. Now there are a lot of factors to consider. The way a person was raised, the social influences that act upon us all and the challenges of life that constantly bombard us in one way or another all are all things that need to be considered in this equation. Ultimately though, we are all responsible for the actions we take. One can hold the hilt of a knife or hold the hand of a person in need. One can pull the trigger of a gun or trigger the start of a good cause. One can blow up a busload of innocents or take a busload of food to the needy. We all have the choice of good or evil, and that is the gift and curse that we bear as the creations of God. We have to live with this burden as a price for our humanity and our freedom to choose. Problem for me is that I honestly don’t know if most of humanity deserves the option to choose based on what I see on TV or read in my local paper.
      It is my duty to my own soul and my own humanity to seek the good deeds, no matter where they are or how small they are. That is of course, my choice.

    16. Jason on October 6th, 2006 7:18 pm

      This is what happens when people believe in God. God is the root of all evil.

    17. Carpe Noctem on October 7th, 2006 4:09 am

      Superb post, Watcher.

    18. Watcher1 on October 7th, 2006 8:54 pm

      Thanks, Carpe.

      Jason, you’ll eventually have to choose a side. Choose wisely.

    19. Frank on October 15th, 2008 4:49 pm

      It is a good thing that this vile bastard killed himself so that he can now rot in hell for eternity, although being raped and tormented in prison before he died would have been a good intro to his eternity in hell. And he is definately rotting in hell. The type of human being that it takes to do what he did does not deserve help or treatment, Death is a better alternative for this type of person.

    20. Bettie on June 29th, 2010 4:23 am

      Did he ever consider that his baby daughter Elise ( who died at birth) may have been taken as an act of mercy by God, so she wouldn’t grow up to be molested by Daddy? Angry at God? He should have looked at his own heart instead.

    21. Karey on February 18th, 2011 3:31 pm

      ummmmm i hate to be like rude but what kind of freaking messed up man is this if i was him and i decided to leave a suicide note i wouldnt leave one to my wife. i would leave on to my parents first i mean they raised me and i would want them to be the first ones to know i am dead and maybe say to sho my wife the note or write a part to her but i wouldnt want to give it to her because then that is the last memory i gave her

    22. bob on December 4th, 2014 7:20 am

      i think he was morally wrong

    23. bob on December 4th, 2014 7:21 am

      he was just wrong

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